Wondering Day!

Haiz...today,i met my old frens...3girls and 1 boy from GBS de...They came to my shop and eat Sate...I served them. We crap alot..One girl asked me whether i do have a gf or wat,so i ans her i do have one.."Why?",i asked so... She ignored and asked "Hey,ah hao,u sure she loves u nt wor?" then i straight ans " Of coz she is!" Haiz.. Thn she asked again,"wah!ah hao finally gt gf liao o.Hehe..." Thn the guy dunno real ejek or asking me,he asked "eh hao ar,u so sure she loves u hor,but u noe she loves u is coz of ur WAT,wealth or ur appearance or ur stupidness?" Wa!! Really stunned,dunno wat to ans.. I murmured.....He pulak told me,"Hey hao ar,u start when de o??" Thank god he changed ques. Haiz,but no change was much better... Ish... Made me thought really i'm the one for her or not?? Provided,now my frens some broke up wif their partner and i really scared by them... Arghhh!!! Stop it sial...

Thn they went back...they invited me to go for reunion,ish,so long din meet all of them ad...But i rejected.. Haha... Not wanna being compared by them..So rejected...Haiz... Now i dunno wat really happened to me ad..Crap alot everyday,until my fren oso tak boleh tahan and tembak me till tiam tiam... Haha..but they say enjoy oso... Swt...Dunno they lebeh or me?! Haiz... Thn,i nw every day oso call my gf,haiz...wanted her to call me but she said parents were here so i oso understand lor... Haiz... Dunno wat happened to my mood nowadays,getting worst...i now cant really can have ppl besides me... All i want is to be alone... Jia Lat... WHY?? After working oso,i feel lik all my intentions seem gone and nt so wan to anymore... Haha... Happy jor

8.02pm again i'm here to update somethings again.. Was eating,but i gt no mood to eat anymore coz of some family probs.. Was slping after i finished helping my parents at their shop,body was damn tired and i took a nap... Just b4 the nap,everything seems goin smooth  but i jz dunno wat happen to all my ppl around me...After i woke up,mom scolded me lik mad till...Arghhh....dun wan tell d la...Thn i msg SOMEONE....Let SOMEONE be A...After being scolded by mom,i msg-ed A...i asked her eat d? A ans En...ate d...Thn i dunno crap wat to A,A ans "zzz"... So i asked A why lor,A ans "Donno wat to talk ad" Swt... After see-ing this msg from A.. I gt no mood to eat d...and i left my rice on table and i walked to my room and locked me up... After tat,i was thinking about my and A's relationship. I think whether is tat my fault for nt accompanying A and went to help my parents?? Was tat my fault or no?? I really clueless bout wad A wants... After helping parents,vr tired,even i gt time to nap,i nvr but msg A... Swt... I dunno wad i did,telling the truth but nvr b accepted... I'm lost!! And i dunno wat to do anymore. I've done so many things but ended up wif Dono Wat Talk Ad...This 4 simple words but they really stab my heart deeply... I didnt force A anymore,A dun wan,i jz respect... Mayb our relationship jz lik a 'COVELENT BOND'... Will break if another GREATER FORCE is applied... Nvr hope much but jz let the time solve everything...

From a broken hearted blogger