Problematics Days~

Some ppl say Grey Colour symbolises upset,worry and bad mood...Guess so! It's been a long while i din update my post d...mayb nearly 2-3 weeks ba!! It is quite a long long long story to start off but i would nt lik to write it all,after all it's a bit grandmother story~~~

Yeah~Firstly,it is my exam,SPM....this gonna judge my FUTURE sial...and tat's y i faced alot pressures... Swt... 1. My parents are like mad fella everday urging me go STUDY STUDY STUDY!! F*** Sial... I dun give a damn to them oso... Second,it's my fren who so mean alot to me,she oso keeps on asking me go study,swt...but i lose...den i oni jz listen to her--->STUDY lor... but still sien lor...after all,studying is not my hobby oso....

But,so far,i oni gt confidence wif my both Maths subjects...so far la... Hehe... The days went off was so fast till now oni left 2 papers to go ni...Chemistry and Chinse paper... Today,i was having my Physic  paper and when i did the paper 3 which started at 2pm till 3.30pm tat time,i felt lik i'm fainting sial... but lucky i could finish it early den i slpt for 30 mins.... Mayb the weather too hot d gua... jia lat... and this few days,when i squatin and stand up,i will feel lik pengsan pengsan abit lor...cham... Dunno wat happen to me ad... Sobs... Sobs...

So fast sial,when i think back when i was in Form1 tat time,i was so wishing the day to graduate as fast as possible...and now it's the time...and i feel lik not wanna leave secondary school life...Tat time,i was lik a prob student,BFF will understand tat...Hehe...Dun tell... Let this be our lil secret o... Hehe... Tat time oso i was bullied by few ppl... Then,when i was in Form2,i no more lik Form1 time anymore,and so no more ppl bully me and i even make fren wif them but they WILL NOT be my BFF... I sometimes wondered whether i cn still meet my BFF after i leave for Uni or College!! How good if the time could jz stop for now!!! But tat's IMPOSSIBLE!!! Seeing everyone has their target ad and i still wondering wat's my ambition,i really no idea man...seriously,i think bout alot prospects but i gt no courage to go for tat...i scared to leave my parents away noe?? Thinking bout leaving them and go to study alone myself at a place whr they will nt be dr for me....i feeling so scared... i use to hate my parents as they sometimes really vr controlling,but i noe they care for me...especially my Grandma... Grandma takes care of me since i was young... I dun wanna leave her even though i hate her scolding me... But now i hope they can scold me more as this shows tat they are care bout me... Swt....


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